Friday, November 23, 2007

The Cubicle Man - Lesson Three

Using Annual Leave.
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In my company, I have the authority to approve/ disapprove any request to use annual leave for the people that I take charge off. On most occasions, I would approve because it is their leave and I feel they ought to use it any way they wish to. On top of that, it is also my doctrine that the company will not 'shut down' because one person is missing from his or her post.
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This occasion however, I chose to say
'No, I cannot approve your leave'
Why? Well because I'm truly short-handed, I did reject the request months ago because I foresaw the need to have more workers around this critical time and I did ask her not to make any plans.
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She did make plans anyway. She did ask again anyway. She just added the 'please-please-pretty please' look.
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I still said 'No.'
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Then a fellow co-worker stepped in and asked on her behalf. She said "just let her go, work will carry on anyway." After some thought, I relented and agreed.
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I felt like rejecting her out-right because she actually dared to play this game of chance with me. I told her not to make any plans for her own good because if I do reject her leave application, the money used to place a down payment for her traveling plans would have been non-refundable. Still, she chose to go ahead, pressuring me to give in because now money is involved. Not giving in to her would effectively cause her to 'lose' money. That's not a very nice thing.
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After the dust has settled, after I've approved her leave, I do hope she have fun on her trip, but when she returns, I do hope she have a good think about what all of this means. Think about it.
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One would think that her co-worker was just being nice by sticking up for her. But in fact (to me) - because I see the big picture - her co-worker was actually suggesting that her work here is insignificant, anyone else can do it.
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So then I think, from a supervisor's point of view. If her work is so easily re-distributed to others without any complains from them, then why do I still need her around. And with the company's cost cutting efforts (they do not know of this) her trip could very well cost her her job. I might need to go through the dreaded exercise of retrenching again.
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Somehow, I just do not feel any empathy for her (more pity than anything else) , because she just made an unwise decision coupled with very bad timing mixed in with a very juvenile attitude.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Will you fight for me?

That does not sound like something a guy would say right?
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Guess not.
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I feel quite blessed to be working with the people I work with now, (on most days anyway) , but many times I forget that many of them are oh so young. 21, 22 and some 24 years old.
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Today, I was asked this question, "If I gave you a wish, what would you wish for?"
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I replied, "If I'm given a wish, I'd wish the wish away."
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I would not say I'm an old man. far from it, I'm just mature enough to know that in this life, one must fight for anything that is worth wishing, worth having , worth loving. If one was willing to simply use a single wish to fulfill a desire, than perhaps, the thing that was desired might not be worth desiring in the first place. You think?
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So I got a big blur look from the faces of all these young ones. I think they will get what I'm trying to say later in their life. I hope so anyways. Some things cannot be taught, the person must be given a chance to catch life's hidden lessons on their own. No?
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So I left it at that, choosing not to elaborate.
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I returned to my cubicle, and for a moment, I count the many things that I would like to fight for. But I have not started to fight. I have many desires but the fights have not started because I'm crippled with the fear of failing. I know I will put up a good fight if only I have enough courage to start the fight. What a pickle I've nudged myself into...

Thursday, November 01, 2007

A BOSEy Indulgence